These were taken on the very beautiful Balbriggan beach. I love living in Dublin, something I never thought I would be saying when I lived in the south-west! Coming up to Dublin used to be mainly for the airport... now I can't imagine elsewhere to be. This beach is so incredible to walk on, there are stretches you can walk all the way to Meath on, and at night the lights of Dundalk are visible across the water. 

As I grew up a country girl, it refreshes and makes me feel at home to visit the less populated areas like this. I miss the forest so much! I dream of Finland and the symphony of the metsä, the beams of light - be they blue or white or yellow. Just as with past concrete jungles, I live for them, but equally for the escape.

Outfit details | jacket: Zara | shoes: eBay | dress: Ever Pretty (sponsored)

Midweek tomorrow... happy days!


I used to feel I could candidly write about anything online and did so, to an extent - I kept a lot behind curtains and only some allusions to situations, yet as the years go by, my desire for privacy heightens.Alternatively I feel it is a fear of exposure or a fear of intimacy, one can wear many masks and feel so safe, but the void of loneliness that can grow, even for an introvert, can be crushing.

Honesty is the best policy... but as the strength of the internet grows and as I grow up from a girl into something older, that statement raises my inner eyebrow. With all the masks we wear daily to be what we need to in order to survive... there's honesty in the masks but it's also such an act...

I write more candid poetry on my Instagram - search the tag #tahtirambles if you're interested.

If there was something to see here, it would already be there...

all the same; all different

all the same all the different

This will be my expression and face for the next 10 years.

It’s weird to know what is behind the eyes sometimes; in any case, mine was the stress of having my first 2 shots disturbed by a little kid playing (no fault of theirs) and the fact that it cost 6 euro.
I was also feeling like I was going to pass out with the drained-ness and other symptoms that had been growing increasingly more debilitating for over a decade. 
I took these on June 2 and I was hospitalised 3 days later. Diagnosed with severe ulcerative colitis, the intensity of my symptoms left doctors wondering how I’d been walking around, let alone 9 hour work days & 4 hour commutes. 
Growing up in rural Ireland I was taught that I’d ‘get better before I was married’ and never sent home even if I was crying in the pain I was in, because my pain wasn’t visible. It made me believe my pain wasn’t worthy in comparison to others. 
So I developed a mind over matter approach to pain and consistently grew stronger with ignoring it. When it would break my body I’d blame myself. The diet and healthy eating culture today gave me answer after answer too as to why I was incorrect. Vegan. Paleo. Keto. Clean. Ovo-lacto. Raw. etc. A lifetime of constant pain and fear and wondering why my health was continually failing.
I went in last Monday unable to move with pain, so dehydrated I was on drips for nearly a week. Thanks to modern medicine I leave on the mend.. I leave and move forward now with a diagnosis that will change my entire life.. I’m excited. For the first time, health is legitimately in my grasp. I’m so grateful.

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